Love, fear, and everything in between 

Children are curious and in awe of a lot of things. They start to wonder what’s around them, and then gradually become accustomed to language and others’ behaviours. But when you’re a child, you really don’t know what’s going on. You try to do things by yourself and end up failing and embarrassed that you couldn’t be independent. Your parents look at you and laugh; not because they’re angry or unsupportive, but more because you tried to do something harder than ever imagined and could have only failed. Think about the first time (or a child’s first time) walking, speaking, and even going to the bathroom. It’s funny because it’s difficult for children to do things alone, and we as adults can see that and understand their failure. Nothing to be ashamed about, rather something to learn from and grow as you progress.

Joel Houston spoke magnificently about his challenges with raising a two year old. It’s incredible how much insight comes from raising a child, especially insight about yourself. Children seem immature because they’re so immersed in their minuscule world that they have the biggest fear from a misperception or an unknown detail. It consumes them. They think a small noise is a monster’s growl, or a shadow a stalking creature. And we, as older, “wiser” beings, can clearly see what it is and what it’s not. But how often do we go through life the same way? So focused and so afraid and one detail, of one monster, of one shadow that’s actually nothing?

This week, everyone saw the disaster that erupted in Paris. And for a few hours, the world came together in its support. People lit candles, asked for prayers, gathered in circles for one ideal: peace. More often though, people are divided and separated in their views. But for a moment, the world came together. And as a Christian, I sometimes separate the secular world from that of the Christian. There seems to be too much conflict for the two to exist together at times and it’s been a struggle to join the two worlds. But honestly, I’ve had it wrong… So incredibly wrong. What the bible ultimately points to is this view of unity and for the two to coexist within each other. It’s not about me trying to put aspects of the bible into daily life. It’s about being so consumed by the weight of the Cross and of His love that overtakes both worlds. He did not come into this world for me to separate the two or actively try to merge both together. He didn’t pray before taking up the cross for us to be so confused about how to go about this world perfectly. His love overcame both bridges so that when He told us to take His perfect bread and wine, it was about being consumed by His grace. We don’t need to be on fear because love triumphs fear as seen this weekend. And He is the perfect love that bleeds into all our surroundings.

I am praying for them. I am not praying for the world but for those whom you have given me, for they are yours. All mine are yours, and yours are mine, and I am glorified in them. And I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, keep them in your name, which you have given me, that they may be one, even as we are one. 
John 17:9-11


I’ve been pretty worried about a lot of things lately, but what is there to fear. The unknown isn’t scary when it’s lying all upon the grace and love of His Name. And like learning your first words and language for the first time, this isn’t to come naturally easy. It’s all on His timing and His way that we’ll learn when we’re immersed in His love. You didn’t actively learn your first language. You just learned it by being in that environment.

Last note – I don’t believe God creates disasters or suffering, especially not after His Son’s resurrection. He is not a God who enjoys watching us suffer. But in the midst of all the pain and storms, His love surrounds us when our thoughts wage war. And yes, I know logically this may not be sound, but the world’s never made sense.


It makes no sense but this is grace
And I know You’re with me in this place
Verse from Here Now


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